I took some time out this Weekend to go for a walk. I really needed it. I haven’t been writing as much lately. I had a dip in my mental health. I had an increase with regards to my medication and may be going back to therapy to hopefully work a bit more on the trauma I experienced.
I would have thought three years on that I would be moved on by now. The truth is I don’t think you ever get over any trauma. You learn to deal with it.
Which I obviously haven’t.
It’s hard as you move forward and think, finally. It takes one stressful time in your life and bam, your back there. Going through it all again.
I’ve learnt I need to take time for myself, this is so important. I have a few health issues at the moment. I’m suffering badly with fatigue. I have low B12. I have an appointment with a Nutritionist soon thankfully. I am hoping she may be able to give me advice on vitamins etc… and help me to understand what my body needs.
I also broke my wrist and cracked a rib, so that is no fun. That’s what happens when you decide to join your nephew on the trampoline.
Yep I did that.
I’m an idiot.
I started an adult Ballet class, I love to dance. I began to dance when I was very young and gave it up in my twenties due to falling ill. But I’m so glad I now have the opportunity to start again. I am a strong believer now that exercise does help, be it a distraction or what. It helps take my mind off things and helps me to feel more awake.
I’ve also been to a few children’s parties and my anxiety is always through the roof at those. I never know what to say and I worry if I brought the right gift.
My daughter wants a birthday party next year, she will be four. Help!
Anyway here are some lovely pics of my walk this morning.
I love the forest its so quiet and peaceful. I could stay there all day.
Admittedly I spend most my time thinking if it’s quiet and that can be a nightmare when you suffer with a mental illness. But I think it’s important to take time out to think so it doesn’t build up. It okay to have bad thoughts as long as you process them and know how to deal with them.
Speak to someone you trust.
Speak to someone who will listen and not judge.
Speak to a charity like Pandas via firstname.lastname@example.org or the Birth Trauma Association via Facebook.
@pndandme hosts a great chat on a Wednesday and #mentalhealthhour on a Sunday.
All in all, please just take time out for yourself. You deserve it.