I finally got to the point where I said to myself,’you need to do something for yourself’. So I thought I would try seven days of self-care to see if it would make a difference to my sleep, emotions and fatigue.
So here goes:
Day one: I decided to work out in the garage, hubby uses it as a gym so I thought why not give it a go. I nearly died. I flicked through Youtube and decided to pick a 30 minute work out. I thought 30 minutes can’t be that bad. Ha was I wrong! It was a 30 min Tabata workout, a bit like a hip hop class I guess.
I was dying. But I slept like a baby that night, strange. My daughter actually enjoys joining in. She loves to dance. She also loves to do these excercises too. So if you don’t actually get any time to yourself but still want to work out, get them to join in. Of course if the doctor says it’s ok. She giggles the whole time. I dont know if it’s because she is having fun or becuase I am panting like a dog.
I also brought some crystals. Amethyst, which is supposed to help with pain and insomnia. A friend of mine swears by it. I wear a bracelet because I suffer with headaches and back pain. It does take the edge off. I don’t know if it is mind over matter or what. But I’m not about to question it. I have a crystal that I sleep with under my pillow and it really does help me. Wish I could tell you why. Maybe it is the thought of it being there and thinking it works. I took the bracelet off for a few days just to see and the headaches became more intense, weird!
I have been turning my phone off at night too. This helps massively. No pinging or lights flickering through the night and it’s not the first thing I grab in the morning.
I have been trying to drink water for the sake of it. To help with the headaches and generally trying to feel better. That has helped aswell. I have been relying on fizzy drinks to get me through the day.
Day Two: Back in the gym I go, only this time I did 15 mins of my video and then sit ups and squats. Ouch is all I am going to say. I had to walk down the stairs sideways the next day. Haha!
I again slept better that night and my mind started to feel more clear. No busy thoughts rushing around my head.
Day Three: Gym time again, more sit ups and squats. Running around the street too. Safe to say I needed my inhaler, oh and the curb was quite a comfy seat for all of 3 mins. I was too embarrassed to carry on and decided to stay in the garage from now on until I am fitter. You wouldn’t think I use to dance from the age of 5 to 23 and do gymnastics. Oh what having a baby does to you. I suppose the birth trauma didn’t help. But again that night I slept better, my mind feeling more clear everyday.
Sleep is something I have had lack of since I have suffered with depression. My mind has been constantly busy. Full of all manner of thoughts swimming around.
It’s so physically and emotionally draining. It takes away all the goodness from you, as you end up with nothing left to give. No energy.
So this is partly why I have done this, to test the water.
Day Four: Swimming with the family. It was so much fun, my little one loves swimming, the wave machine especially. We then enjoyed a nice lunch and did a bit of shopping. A lovely day out. I then took myself off for a nice bath and stuck Netflix on. It was quite relaxing until the little one needed the toilet. No rest for the wicked.
Day Five: Hubby and I had a date night. We went to one of my favourite places, Chiquitos, yum! Then did a bit of shopping. It was nice to have some time together. Have an adult conversation. We don’t get to do it often.
A day of house cleaning and painting. I guess it has to be done at some point. There is only so long we can put it off. I was exhausted. I also didn’t sleep to well that night. I guess it goes to show.
Day seven: Shopping, Tesco called to say our delivery wouldnt be coming due to sickness. So we had to go food shopping, no fun with a toddler, that’s for sure ha. Toy store yes they love it. But when it comes to the food shop nope! Here comes the tantrum.
After that it was back home to catch up on the washing. I swear between the three of us we go through so many clothes. I went in the gym that evening. I had no motivation to do so. I was exhausted. I could not be bothered. I think finding the motivation is hard when you are tired and just have no go.
I just need to find some motivation. Its not as simple as telling yourself you need to do it. I’m still struggling to find it but I plan to try my best to keep going. It did help with my sleep so it’s definately worth it.
I think watching random stuff on netflix like ‘ House ‘ or another box set, when the little one goes to bed helps me unwind and switch off. It’s almost like I need to keep busy or find something to take my mind off of it all. I have thought about going back to counselling as my GP thinks it would be a good idea. She has also upped my meds to see if that helps to balance my emotions more. We will see.
All in all Excercise no matter how much really does help to clear your mind and help with sleep. Something I plan to keep doing.
What has helped you get through the bad days? What do you do for self- care?